ME!!!

Kooiann is my new s/n for livejournal! PEACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yea, today I got to get up, go to chruch, and then on the way home my mom was like, by the way, we are shoveling up the ice under the snow in our Driveway....... SO MUCH FUN... any ways, I am going to this superbowl party tonight, should be fun, and then when I wake up in the morning I will be 17.. ahaha..

Yea, I am just chillin at my house, and have no one to talk to, since everyone else in the world has a life. I am grounded for a week, and it is pure torture. Yea, like I can talk on the phone and go on-line and everything, I just can't go anywhere, and it just so happens that the day I get grounded is three days before my freeking birthday, do you know how much that really sucks. Oh well, I am kinda bummed, cause I wanted to have like a Super Bowl party type thing, but now that is out of the questions, and yea. Anyways, ntohing really going on in my life, as you can tell. Write more later...
PEACE!!

Current Mood: bored

nothing to exciting today. I haven't really been doing to much, Just kinda sitting back, trying to repair the mistakes that I made.. Time will tell...

6 DAYS TILL I TURN 17!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: stories, trapt

I know I haven't written in here for a while, but to much is going on in my life. to sum it all up I have a song for you all to read!
I found a line and then it grew
I found myself still thinking of you
I felt so empty and now I'm fine
But it's still burning when will you be mine

Too much of the same stories in our lives
I think it's time to change, don't you?
(I think it's time for us to walk away from here)
Stories in our lives, we keep them all inside

Now look at me still in your mind
Our memories so intertwined

Well you broke through and found your way
And so did I no need to stay

Do you remember lying on the beach so late at night
Do you remember running through the sprinklers that night
Do you remember all the songs that I have wrote for you
I remember the way you made me feel when I was with you
That look in your eyes I never thought that this would be untrue

Current Mood: confused
Current Music: stories, trapt

So yea.. what a weekend.. found out lots of things, and figured out a lot of things for myself. I am feeling pretty good about it all. Sorry if I hurt you, (you know who you are), but for now, it has to be..

today was school.. nothing other than that. But Coralyn sang me a song today and it made me cry for like ever.. she sang do i ever by brian mcknight.. and yea.. it was very awesome.. she even played the piano.. awww

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: do i ever

HAHA.. My mom and me took down all the christmas decorations today. And if anyone has seen my house around christmas, you know that there are alot of things! Yea.. Tomorow back to the blah of school life. I am acually kinda looking forward to it. I mean there is nothing to do all day around my house, I need something to do all day. HAH. Well tonight it is off to church for me! I am excited, we haven't had youth group for almost 2 weeks.. and that is not cool. I am soo excited for this summer. I got my regisration sheet for camp this summer. I have gone for 11 years now, it is just a part of me. This year I am going for 3 weeks, the longest I have ever been away from home. I am sooo stoked!! HOLY COW!!! I have never wrote that much! that is awesome for me. If you couldn't tell, I am in a good mood. I am going to pick one of the mood icons that I don't know what it means... so if it looks bad.. I'm not.. I am really in great mood!

Current Mood: complacent

today I am feeling a little better. I need to find some where to go tonight, since my parents are having a Adult only party.. nothing bad.. just no kids... so if you want my company.. call my cell.. i'll be around somewhere!

Current Mood: quixotic

I was upstairs and i was thinking about how my "friends", well how they really aren't friends after all. No one ever calls me to do something. I always end up having to call people. Then there are some people that say I use them because I only call when I want to do something.. well duh... you never freekin call me!! so yea.. it just really hurts sometimes. And then there are other people that you know we make plans everythings good.. but then all of the sudden something comes up and then everything is off. I hate saying something about it, but if i don't then you will never know.

Current Mood: crushed

Happy new year to everyone. Hope everyone's night was awesome. Well, who all made there new year resolutions? I sure as hell did. haha.. well i will let you all know what they are, but not know.. don't feel like typing them all..

Current Mood: jealous

I woke up all extra early this morning to go to the gap outlet in holland because me and someone were kinda planning on hanging out today, but low and freeking behold i was checking out, rushing to get home in time, that someone calls me to say that they made other plans.. yea.. kidna gettin used to it now though.. so yea. anyways.. hope they had a BUNCH of fun. Anyways.. so tonight, i am not doing anything either.. man i am a big freeking loser

Current Mood: pissed off
Current Music: the breakdown

OMG..today was so freeking awesome. Me and kaley hung out all day. We got some pimp juice from the gas station. It was great. Carl says I need as much of that as I can get. LOL Then we went to Taco bell, and got these little homies things.. they are funny.. MARIA Y JOSE'.. LMAO.. after that we went home and saw how wizard of oz goes with black side of the moon, ate pizza and then came home.. great fun..

Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: Mr. Jones.. i forgot who it is by!

Well, today wasn't anything exciting. Just the same old same old. Sat around for a while, then I went to the Gap and got some really comfy pants.. I like them.. and yea.. now I am just chillin, looking for something interesting to do. Nothing at all around here. Ha, any ways.. I really don't feel like typing any more.. so yea.. i will later on in life!

Current Mood: bored
Current Music: none..

Ok. Here's the deal, I really didn't mean to make you feel bad tonight.. but yea.. I just wanted to show you a slight view of what was going on inside of me for the last 3 months of my life. Everyone askes me why i like here without you so much, so i thought i would sum up the chorus in a way that relates to what went on. basicaly i am without you, but no matter what happens.. i will always have you with me.. wether it is physicaly or just on my mind. I really wish so bad that i could just get over all this. but it always comes back to me somehow. and yea.. I am so glad that you are happy with it all, really i am, but now atleast you can see what goes on inside of me. I don't know what will ever happen between us in the future, prolly nothing, but i wouldn't change what we had for anything, because it made me part of the person that i am today, and maybe that is why things happened that way.

Current Mood: grateful
Current Music: i could not ask for more.. edwin mccain

I thought about it all morning. But the one thing I have that is better than any of the present that were wrapped under the tree was my best friend.. I love you so much. Thank you so much for everything we've been through. That is what has made me who i am. You mean so much, and yea.. talk to you later!

Current Mood: giggly
Current Music: i got that boom boom!

Hey everyone, today is christmas. We opened all our presents last night with the whole family. It was tight. I got a cell phone! AT LAST!! Well, i got some clothes and a new coat, other than that everything was awesome! merry christmas to all!

Current Mood: energetic
Current Music: christmas tunes

Hey everyone. Today has been pretty ok. Last night at x-mas at my grandmas, I got a new coat, NO MORE GREEN THING, a gift card for 75$ to the gap, and a certificate to the mall, and a sweater and shirt. yea it was tight. But last night, I turned on my cd player and this song came on, and it made me remember how much some one means to me. I thought I was moved on from them, but I realized that I was not. I liked this one kid lately, but the more I thought about it, the more i wondered if the only reason I liked him was because I knew it was the closes thing I would ever have to the other guy. and yea.. Life is confusing.. But if you are the guy this is about, I want you to know that you are the best friend in the world to me. What we have right now is so amazing and you mean everything to me. Sorry all this is coming out now....

Current Mood: okay
Current Music: "Here without you"

Yea.. I don't know what that was about Kaylee, but yea.. you have absolutly no right to act like that. I acidenlty called your house, ment to call brad's, but i didn't just want to hang up on your house. So yea.. whatever, and about the whole friday night. don't even start to act like that cuz you were invited, you just never fricken showed up so whatever.
anyways. last night was the x-mas party! it was all drama.. lol. .it's aight though, but i got to go, I have plans for the day.. lol hope no one is offended by that.

Current Mood: loved
Current Music: g-ma got ran over by a reindeer!